Dear Little Bri,

as my girls grow,  I wonder how to teach them, how to mother them, how to discipline them.... I long for them to go through life without struggles, without pain, without questioning, in joy, simple joy. I wondered what I would tell myself as a growing girl if I could. (although I doubt I would have listened ;)


Dear Little Bri,

Someday you will be nearly 30, and have your own little girls, 2 of them. You will love them more than words can express, but you will try. You will have a whole new understanding for your mom's love for you when see how much you love them.

You will be married to a wonderful man by the time you are 22. Don't waste your time on boys before Ryan, and don't worry that boys don't like you before Ryan, he is the only one that matters. Don't worry that you aren't exactly who other boys want, don't try to be skinnier, blonder, funnier, smarter, or more like other girls - you are exactly who you need to be for your future husband and he will love you just as you are.

Don't worry about kids that make fun of you, or laugh, or try to encourage you to be someone you aren't. You are just as God made you and he is the only one that can tell you to change.  You are made perfectly by Him and he will continually mold you, and you won't always enjoy the process, but you are always happier after you see the big picture.

Someday you will lose babies before you meet them. This will be harder than you ever knew.  But you will see them again in heaven, and hold them, love them, sway with them, & sing to them. And they are still yours, its okay to hurt for them, and to love them, and to love the babies that you have on earth even more, because of the two that are in heaven.

All those days spent in the gym playing basketball may seem like they are the only thing that matters at the time, you may feel the need to be perfect and the best. But honey, you will never be perfect, but you will learn so much and will love looking back on the time you played, so enjoy it while you do.

Don't worry so much about what others think, just be who you are, once you know who you are, people will know how to love you, because they will see that you love you.

Be nice to people. It's not worth the laugh you may get from others to mock someone, everyone is special, everyone is someone's child, and everyone is loved by God the same way He loves you.  Love people.

Little Bri - Love yourself, love your family, love Jesus, love people and love life, it truly does fly by.

 love you punkaroo Norah Grace. you are our sunshine. 

 love you evy girl. you are our sweet pea.

Heavenly Father, please help us raise these girls the best way we can. help us to have peace about the decisions we make. help us to have discernment in our parenting. help us to love you and love each other well through the process. give us peace that only you can during it all. we love you. amen.