I get to see the midwife on Thursday!!

I am excited to go to the doctor on Thursday! I have my appointment in the afternoon, I will be about 5.5 weeks along at this appointment which is pretty early to see the doctor. But because of what happened last time, they are bringing me in early. I don't know what they are going to do. I am hoping they do an ultrasound, so I can at least see the baby and see where it is. I don't think I will get to hear a heartbeat yet. I am so eager, and as I write about it, I start to get nervous. The flash backs of the last ultrasound come flooding back, and I remember that gut wrenching feeling in the room that day. I have to be hopeful........not worried, not timid. But full of the holy spirit, full of peace and patience, full of joy and faith.